I struggle with reliving past mistakes. Shoulda. Coulda. They say hindsight is 20/20…. I will probably always have regrets. But what good does it do to go over and over past mistakes without moving forward?
Do I seek forgiveness for misdeeds of the past? Yes. Have I learned from past behaviors? Yes. Can I change the past? No…but I can change the future.
Do I doubt myself? Often. Do I doubt my faith? Many times. These days I am trying to listen to that Voice within. Have I chosen the right path? Where do I go from here? Have I done what I am supposed to do? Is there more that is expected of me?
I see nothing positive from remaining stuck in the past. Regardless of whatever I have -or have not – accomplished to date, I do not believe my work is done. Do I know what that mission is, or in what direction I am headed? No. But I do know that, with each new day, I am trying to live a good life. With each new day, I am looking for new meaning to why I am here. I believe I have something to offer to someone, every day that I’m alive. Even if I don’t recognize a purpose, I believe God has one for me.
Therefore, my resolve is to keep on keeping on with each new day. I intend to trust that there is a reason I am where I am, and around the people I meet each day. I hope to do better. I hope to actually envision a purpose for myself, but until I am able to do that, I simply will try to be the best person I can be…today.